And things have gotten really hard because of that.
Budgets and stress levels had to be reassessed, and we made some cuts where we could.
And one of those cuts was Boston College.
I'm simultaneously heartbroken and at peace (and aware of how much of a contradiction that is) about going on a leave of absence from BC. On the one hand, every cell of my body feels alive when I'm doing theology. On the other, traveling twelve hours a week for one class while also being a single mom was starting to take a toll, and that nagging little voice in the back of my head saying, "I'm pleased that you want to bring Me glory, but I know that you know that this is more about you than it is about Me" was starting to be hard to ignore.
Theology is really one of those fields where you have to be in it for the right reasons (as opposed to, say, math, which doesn't care if you're in it for the fame or the love of a good prime number), and as much as I am definitely working for my master's so that I can help advance Christ and His kingdom (ooo, Wheaton reference), I think that that work would be much better done with more humility and wisdom than I currently possess.
And those qualities tend to come with age.
So I'm putting it on hold for awhile, and I think that's what God wants me to do too.
In the meantime, I'm looking forward to getting involved in a ministry at church and doing some private reading and actually having a personal spiritual life, because as I put it to my mom on the phone, "I can tell you tons of stuff about the Bible, but I can't tell you the last time I read it purely because I wanted to and not because I had to for school".
Also, I'm compiling a list of people who didn't bloom in their careers until later in life, like Julia Child. Other examples are much appreciated.
This is also an opportunity to kill two birds with one stone: taking a break from school for awhile enables me to go full steam ahead with my Mary Kay business and therefore contribute to the family budget a little (or a lot, depending on the week).
I'm really quite the Renaissance woman. Next up: ventriloquy!